Tuesday is weights and pilates again!

Today, I was there again, lifting and jumping. I think this is the class I like less. Well, I have mixed feelings. It is good, because you incorporate cardio with the weights, but at the same time, they do a lot a lot a lot of launches. I don't think I like those at all. Seriously. They almost put your whole thigh parallel to the floor. Well, thank goodness I have Pilate's before. I really really really enjoy this class. The instructor is such an inspiration. Someone older than me. oH well, again, no time to log what I did. Too short of a time, to think and tell my feelings of how I feel.

Wed....I was supposed to go to the track and ended up not going.

Thu--thanksgiving. It was a good start with lift class and then with Pilate's. It was a substitute, I think she was eastern European. She looked cute, petite, and lovely...but she turned out like HELGA...Beating the h...out of you. And one more, even she said, this is where everyone wants to through tomatoes at you!

Friday--it was Zumba again, and this time with Alf. It was a good thing. Too bad it goes soo fast. Then Alf and I did a circuit of hell. He showed me how to use the machines, which was a good thing, considering I have been coming to the gym since Sept. Seriously, I see these machines and I really don't know how to go about them.

Saturday--is off to Bella Terra with Esther, we are doing Zumba together, so it should be really really fun.!

Monday Yoga Yourself

Gosh....I can tell you that I actually get excited about this class. Even though I get my butt and everywhere else kicked out tremendously. Never before, I think I have mentioned this, has my body been sooo aware of the extra stuff it has. This time there was a substitute. His name was John. He was bald, and all healthy looking. He had a black tee shirt and a black biker short. He looked clean and cool and ever so elastic. I am fathomed by the idea that I probably look soo unnatural. Good thing, I really don't see pass my own embarrassment and see beyond to what i can benefit from this--apparently it is a lot. The instructor often says, it is better to pay right now a little bit than to pay later in life...because you will pay in all forms...back pain, arthritis, etc. etc., so it was a good vision of what pain I could endure for 1 hour. Now I see a difference now in my posture, tremendously so. I can't believe I have been doing this for only 4 times today and I am beginning to see a difference. Now it is time to continue healing my brain from junk.

Saturday EARLY

Today Esther and I accorded to work out at her new gym...right next to Disney. It was great. I was 14 min late, and she was already going at it. So I arrived and started, We did i think a 30 min on that one and I talked away more than she, but the half hour was practically gone....sooo fast. Then I got in the thread mill with her, and we walked another 40- min i think. It was great, we did not really push a very high speed, since we were both beat by our works outs the day before, but it was good to be moving. We crowned our glory by her, getting some fruit smoothie at Starbucks and i got a hot coco with a pastry....lemon slice of some sort...HEY i WORKED hard, at least it was not a bagel from Einstein's with cream cheese....hello. I work hard, and i should enjoy! So much for a weekend doing.
Thanks Esther, maybe next time i can join you with your trainer and get the hell beaten out of moi

Dance Dance Dance

I danced away. Today I was late to go swimming, so I ended up in the stair master, for 15 min. Not bad. then i went to zumba. I just love to dance to music, to these Latin rhythms...it reminds me of college somewhat....it is the only time I really danced this type of thing, not all the time, but a few Fridays under my belt yes. So it was good, i love shakira, I love how she moves and looks so graceful and how the body is sooo engaged in moving every wit everywhere....I still can't catch up with all the steps, but I am doing better. i love it that the hour goes soooo fast. It is great. I should do this every single day. wHO NEEDS ANYTHING ELSE. afterwards, i ONLY HAD LIKE 14 min for the steam, which were sooooo welcomed, I love to hide in there, hide in the midst...hide in the relaxing part of the day. Oh my how I wished i had a steam and sauna...I swear, I would use them daily. Seriously.

Thursday....one of my favorites

I love Thursday...I love going to lift. i love lifting weights, and trying to see if I am going to have pretty arms, and fit into my 20 blazers. How can they be tight on the arms....this is not acceptable, and i will do everything to fit into them. mind you they are size 14! they should be swimming.....yeah i sould be swimming in my clothes, and not have them be tight TIGHT TIGHT. so I did that, and i just love this teacher, she is my age, but she is like 5 feet 2 and probably weighs a hundred pounds if....she is really fit. running 50 miles a week....seriously. and she said 7 minutes running fast...in training for her marathon.....seriously 7 min for a mile.....it takes me 5 min to do a quarter of a mile...walking! Gosh...So it was a good work out and then I stayed with her for her Pilate's class. I love it, I can't believe I did not take this things in my twenties...where in the hell WAS I? how COME i DID NOT KNOW about things like this. Girls should be forced to do this type of classes as they get into their twenties. yoga once a week at least and Pilate's a couple times a week at least. Well, that is what I would have loved to do. It was good, and then i AHHHHHH enjoyed the steam and this time thanks to Alf....I could go to the sauna for 10, 15 minutes, because he was going to pick up Alexei...today is his early day...so I don't have time to spend extra in the steam at all, but Alf has been there to help out....glorious. I found a solution for my foot, heel pain. I put my legs up against the wall in the sauna, and the tumble marble, was really hot and it was good, except that i have a high arch on my foot, so I was getting my sole really hot and not the needed area, well, i found a way I was putting it on the side of the door...perfect. the heat, the pain...I much much much rather do heat than ice....in a million years....so it was contagious...meaning It felt soo good and kind of hurt ed, but I just wanted to keep putting it up there...so i ended up with 14 min of therapy...per say...IT WAS GOOD.good good.

Wednesday walk

Today we walk. We walk with the horrible pain. Well, some days it is better than others, but that heel pain has really gotten a hold of me. I am wearing tennis shoes, all day, like I usually do when I am afflicted with this pain, but I know, the really cause of it, THE WEIGHT that I am wearing all day long. I usually would think of my kids as, I need to loose 10 little Alexei's when he was like 8 lbs. old. Then I progress, I need to loose 4 of them, and now we are down to 2!. Still ridiculous, he is 5 already. 5 1/2. Seriously. Well, I am grabbing the yogurt more now instead of fattening stuff, so that is a start. I feel I can do a lot better. Today Jorvik ran/jogged 2 laps. Almost continually. That is 1/2 a mile there. Wow. Cheez....Well, better to be part of an athletic family. I should join them. Alf and the boys.
Walked 2 miles.

Favorite Day

Today is Pilate's with Judy. I absolutely adore this lady. I love love love her teaching and technique. This class is getting more comfortable, but still a bit awkward in that I can actually see how all my extra bulge gets in the way. I am amazed that I can still position myself properly and do the movements, even though of my largeness. I seriously, feel like a whale, and wished I was an elegant crane or something like it. Long long skinny legs. Who wouldn't? The next class is good, although there is a lot a lot a lot of squawking...and I don't know that I love this, especially because it makes my knees feel uncomfortable and it reminds me how out of shape I am, or more so, how in good shape I could be. The problem, with me, is that after all this work with the classes, I feel entitled to get a cheeseburger or something like it...afterwards for such good work. This is what i have to exercise, MY BRAIN

Yoga.

This is my second Yoga class. I don't know what to think about it. I mean, I guess it is extremely painful and soooo hard. I guess here and now is when I acknowledge how much weight really gets in the way. It manifests in a very physical, painful way. In order to do the positions, I am reminded of my inflexibility, not because of willingness but because of a physical impediment. This is where it gets down to the rawness of it. When I realize that all the BULGE really is not doing me any good and it is not NATURAL. I sometimes, feel soo faint and ready to not do it. but the instructor is there telling you, it is very important to suffer a little bit now, then later in life, because as we age, we will all suffer, if we do not have the breathing skills, the posture, the wholeness of us with our body. I can start feeling a difference with Pilate's in my posture and feel a bit more elongated, so this for sure, even though it might be extremely uncomfortable and unmistakably 'IN YOUR FACE' since there are the mirror everywhere, it will be a long life lesson, that will remain with me, if I can see past what is, and imagine what could be.

Friday...Yeah

I don't know why I still get excited when it is Friday. Things as of late don't change much from a Monday. Alf is busy busy so all in all, every day should not differ, other than Sunday. Well, today was Zumba. Can I just tell you how much I love this instructor and class. I am serious. It reminds me of all the Latin dances I went to while at the University. I think I do love all those songs to dance. They are sooo full of life. Well, as usual, I would like to post right after the class or at night of the same, day, but find myself, trying to describe the feelings I had practically a week ago. But one thing for sure, this class is never never dull. I do enjoy it thoroughly. Alf was supposed to join me, but he never showed.

Lift

I love to lift weights. I enjoy this class quite a bit. I think compered to my Tuesday weight class which is combined with aerobic exercise, I thoroughly enjoy this one much better. I talked to the instructor and she is this cute/tiny/athletic person...that has a 15 year old and is my age! Every time I see her, I wonder why it is that I am the way I am and she is the way she is. She has mentioned that she just cannot cook at all hmmmmm....I can. I often wonder, what happened to me in HS here in America. I mean, I was pretty popular in middle school in Mexico. I mean, even in my freshman year of HS. I think I always loved to be fit, I loved gymnastics, I loved fashion. I loved boys. I mean, isn't this the recipe to a perfect outcome? a Cheerleader type? Well, maybe the fact that I did not speak the language at first and I JUST did not bloom? So arriving in my sophmore year in HS could have been more wonderful I think--body wise. I often wonder, why I did not pursue being fit as a priority? I guess French and Italian languages and cooking class had more appeal. So fast forward 20 years plus...I am finally trying to do what should have been automatic and instantaneous. A great fit body. I guess at some level, I thought it is was superfluous, when younger to count calories and worry about such things...I guess I am finding that I need to start doing some of those things in order to look better. Gosh, I am going on a tangent. I guess not having a computer most of the time does take a toll in that you just want to talk and talk and talk. I guess to each it own. This girl is amazing, her knowledge about the body and all the disciplines that she teaches. I mean, she runs, marathons, she is a private pilate/yoga instructor, she is certified and I am assuming in weight training also. I guess when your materia prima is yourself, and you invest all this energy in yourself, the results are breathtaking.

Wednesday

Today we walk. We walk and we walk. Well, me and my both feet. Jorvik is content playing with his 12 cars in what seems to be a 'carreterita.' One obstacle beam, or something that resembles a gymnastic beam. So often in the last weeks, my foot really hurts when I walk, but I determine to walk the whole 4 miles. Sometimes with pain and sometimes slower than I wish.

Love Tuesdays

I think I love Tuesdays, because I just love to see Judy. My Pilate's instructor. She is an icon. Really. She is an older woman, but by this, I mean, someone like Carmen...the model. The epitome of what beautiful might be as a person seasons. She is just fit, beautiful, has poise and is older than me, for a change. She is something to look forward to. I think in this respect, my mother has been the most amazing example of all. She has gracefully aged as well. She is beautiful, she is always thinking and acting on ways to benefit your body in what you eat, what you wear, how you wear it, and how you go about you. She is tall and trim, and has taken her years to achieve and maintain. I often, think why she is soo hard on herself, and maybe that was not the word all these years. Maybe it comes naturally to her. I am finally understanding by grabbing a yogurt, instead of making me a grill cheese...does this come with age? Any how, class was spectacular, she had almost double the size and there were a lot of men. It was great. I am getting better at the poses and exercises and feel hopeful since I have started to see changes in my posture and flexibility or lack of it should I say. I feel more comfortable but don't know that this is because of the classes/weight class after Pilate's, but because of the STEAM experience afterwards. I love the steam room and can't get enough of it. It is not usually very hot, so I can stay in there for 30 minutes or more...usually I only have like 15 minutes to spare (child care is only 2 hours). Weights are also starting to show their magic. My upper arms are starting to look tone and it is exciting. I wished the bottom part would show too, but I think I have to get rid of weight for this to happen.

Yoga

Yes, finally I took a Yoga class. My mother often spoke of Yoga and of its benefits, and how she wishes she would take it all the time; however, as a young girl, I could not understand what it was and what you did. So in the last years, I have bought a couple of books in the hopes of doing something that my Mom thought was a good thing. Just like Pilate's, I have a video and the thing is that I do not have space in my home to practice any type of exercise where you spread yourself. What finally made me try this, has been my horrid heel pain. Actually it is not heel really, it is in the arch of my left foot. It has really flared up. I think the new tennis shoes, are good, but they are soo light and hardly have any support. I don't have my old ones anymore so I am contemplating in getting something with more cushion. Someone mentioned, that they have a lot of flexibility exercises and that, that might help my foot. So here I was in class full of people...avid yogasters!!! I got there when class had already started and found a niche....right in front of the mirrors. That is a horror by itself. I realized that I was first, in the way of others' looking at themselves...and by the way, a big bulge. So I obstructed the view of some...I felt conscious, usually I do, but I try not to have a view in the mirror. So needless to say, I could not hold all the poses that they do. Seriously. I tried hard and think I did pretty good, because of the last months of Pilate's, BUT SERIOUSLY...I think I have forsaken my body. I have really started to appreciate all your body can do and feel privilege to have this type of opportunity to do this exercises and Pilate's; they both have proven to be such great asset. I am far from achieving a good pose, but I am trying hard to do so, and in the middle of it, I am finding that having these 100 extra pounds are really really a bother. Why? continue the way I have been for years and years. I think this year, well since September, is going to prove to be the best start in awakening my body to what it truly should be. Fit.

Monday-Friday 11/3-11-7

Walked 4 miles Monday.
Tuesday--went to Pilates and stayed for weight class....it was hard, my heel/arch is hurting a lot.
Wed. Walked 4 Miles
Thursday was getting ready to go to lift class/pilates, but ended up leaving too late...Alexei's early day...so ended up in the track for 4 miles. snif...i was really sad and bummed
Friday...debating to go to Zumba or not. Judy is back, but my foot is hurting too much I don't know if zumba aggravates it or not...walking is hurting too....but went walking 4 miles.

Feel depressed this week. Really.
It is like a heavy mantel all over my body.
Feel gross. Only nice thing about walking is that I get to hear Rush.