I love to dance

Today Zumba was packed it seems there is more girls coming each week. There are a couple of ones that are soooo fit that look so young from behind and then they turn around and they are probably in their late forties. Then there is this girl all the way to the other side, where I usually don't go, and she looks like a 17 year old from behind, but Oh my....goodness...when she turned around, I wouldn't doubt she was in her 60ties. Seriously. I am amazed at all these older women that look soooo great. I just want to be one of them. Today in particular there was one girl, that probably reminded me of Robyn, Jill's sister, really athletic and even though it was her first time there, she was as energetic and as engulf in the whole dance moves as could be. She was very quick to grasp the dance and it seems she knew a lot of the steps, plus her little soul to it, that made her equally as good as the instructor. I think it was inspiring and wished that after my four months attending I could do at least a little bit of how this girl went. She was good! I love to move and I love the choice of music that she has. It is sooooo good. I love it. I love that I sweat! I love that I burn so many calories and it is fun, and it goes soo fast. Suddenly the 60 minutes are over. Afterwards, I ended up going to a new Gym (I had a new visit us for one day! pass) well, it wasn't ready yet, by the time they showed me all the installations...or I should say all the machines and see the pictures of the SPA that I was supposed to test! I just should have said that I was interested in seeing the SPA part of the gym only and probably get a raincheck to visit them again. All I got was their introductory offer and paper work. Argh.

Thursday with Doris

I love Thursdays, specially because I get to do weights, but without any launches or stepping up here and there. I do like SEP the one where you do steps plus launches with weights, but lift is definitely better. It was a bitter day because I couldn't stay in the steam, since it is Alexei's short day and we had to run back to pick him up. So...so much for work out. It was just that work...and no fun at the end with the steamy room...sniff.

Pilate's was hard for me today, for some reason, I just had a hard time trying to do all the exercises...swimmer, usually I can do it really good for all ten counts, but by 6 I was giving up with the arms...This is the coolest, but the hardest sometimes. I do enjoy Pilate's it is a good thing.

Wednesday was a good day

Today I went walking. I only walked 2 miles, but it was a good walk. It seems that Jorvik is not going to get better any time soon, and it is too cold for us to go to the track. Too late to go to Yoga or any other class, so 2 miles will have to do.

Tuesday

Today was good I did 1 hour of Pilates and 1 hour of weights. I was not very strong for weight class, I don't know what happend, but the good news is that time flew. It really did, and then it was glorious time for the Steam and Jacuzzi. I did those two for 15 min. What I was in heaven, why does it have to end?

Yoga with Ocean View?

Today I decided to try Doris Yoga 8 AM class by the beach. Alf was okay with Jorvik because he had to do homework so it was green light for a couple of hours. I got there at 9:10...STILL managed to be late, I think is because I love to hear Rush's opening remarks each day...that, that is the reason. Well, it was cancelled. Tell me about it. I was so excited...needless to say, I ended up looking for an aerobic apparatus. So the only one available was a bicycle. It was okay, not my first choice, but the place was packed. Literally packed like sardines. I think it had to do with all the overflow from the class. Well the amazing thing, is that this is the first time I come to this gym. This is where Alf hangs out most of the time. IT HAS AN OCEAN VIEW! Yes, it was sooo nice to be there (they have the same view my parent's house has, except for the golf course, but it was sweet! I did bycicle for 48 minutes and then did 17 min on the treadmill, I was going to do like 30 but I kept pressing buttons and trying to figure out a good work out that on the end, they had a STOP button on the middle of the arm (hand rail) so it stop ed abruptly and I couldn't be more happy! I was out of there...looking for the steam! Well, they have a awesome pool outside, it was chili this morning 45 degrees so smoke/hehe he was coming out of the pool...steam! there were a couple of people there, I would have wanted to jump right in, but can you imagine 60plus pair of eyes on my heavenly body!, now, if it was heavenly I probably wouldn't have minded, but it was not. So I found the steam and it was GLORIOUS, YES SOOOOOOO STEAMY you couldn't see the persons in there. They were right in front of the view, so AS THE STEAM DISAPPEARED and the people with it...I could see the ocean. I knew I could start up the steam by pouring some water, after all the bottle was right there, but I was waiting for someone else to come in and do it. I just don't understand why they don't have it running all the TIME. In Mexico at the country club, they did, it was always STEAMY and it was always packed, I guess that was the difference, here since they are not filled all the time constantly, they program it to keep some people kind of happy and those that are not, find ways to steam it up! So I was soo hot from being in there, that YES, I walked outside and jumped in the POOL! What a little heat will do to you! It was good, except that I was hoping for the water to be freezing at this point, and it was kind of warm...oh well. When I returned to the steam room it was roaring again! GOOD thing for bright men. I was a fabulous day of work out, even though I missed the whole YOGA for the week probably!

Saturday????

Yeah, I remember, last Saturday I wanted to add another zumba class to the week, but Alf left to exercise and I couldn't go. So this day, I woke up at 9! Well actually got up...I have been up since 7ish...but realized I wanted to be in class. So I went to the gym that is right by my house...I do not like it one bit. The exercise classroom is sooo ugly and the ceiling is soo low. Any how, the class was packed and I loved that I sweat ed like a pig, probably because it was sooo packed and ventilation were not good, but the teacher is not even close to Judy and her music...OH MAN! I am sooo lucky to have a fantastic Zumba class, so this is the second one so it will be good, but wish I could do zumba with Judy every day! That would be awesome.

Afterwards, I called Alf to see if he wanted to go to Yoga and we would switch the kids, but he had just had breakfast, so I stayed. I have done Yoga with Gerri all the times I have gone, except for one that I did with Doris, and it was soo fantastic to be with Gerri again. I think I like her, because she is good and pushes you to do soo much than you can possible think. She always remarks that it is better to try and do the pose and even if it is uncomfortable but OHHHH SOOO GOOD for your body. She is so knowledgeable about it, and I was trying hard. I caught myself many times today, thinking OHHH THERE IS NO WAY I CAN DO THAT! And I would not try. I stoped myself and even she would say don't just go through the motions, engage and do. So I was trying to do even if it was for brief moments. It came to my mind all the gymnastics I did for years and years, and how I have all the knowledge to do the back flips, the cartwheels without hands, I know I can do it, but fear, because of all the weight I have; and good thing is to fear, because it is real. So when she said we are going to do a head stand....I thought, OHHHH My, I have done those all my life, and handstands too! I lived in my handstands all the time, probably since i turned 7 until the age of 17! I was on my head or my hands....but OHHHHHH NO! Your wit tells you, oHHHH NO! you CAN'T AND YOU SHANT! So I prepared...and got probably to steps 3 out of 7 but could not do it, or I feared to try. The good thing is that we were supposed to only try heading up towards that... I realized I was incompetent, but not for long, until i DECIDED to TRY and try and try until I can achieve. So this is a goal of mine, I am giving me a YEAR to try and do this that seems so natural in my other life. Yoga was very good. Very mind engaging, very much so. I want to be in charge of my body and I want to communicate with it and be in zinc. I find myself becoming more flexible and even think my little large tummy is giving a bit away! Could it be? It really can. Faith. That is what I need.

YEAH JUDY

I love love love zumba. I love that the hour goes sooo fast and that I sweat like a pig. I think I burned 700 calories this time. I am only guessing because there is another girl that is heavy as me. However, I think this time she is a bit more than me, and she bought this device that she puts on her arm, and it tells her how much she is burning, and I am assuming that since i am a little lighter, maybe 30 lbs...or who knows..maybe not. I must be around the same neighborhood. Well, it is excellent and I love it.
Afterwards, I did not take my bathing suit to swim some laps, I have giving up a bit in this department as there are sooo many people there at the time I have to be there, so I ended up going upstairs to the tread mil. I have been wanting to get on the step master, but feel I have to put my walking first. So for the second time this week...I must have done walking on Wed....I can't remember....but I put speed on 4 and that is insane. I have never done more than 3.2 or 3.4, but I wanted to see if I could handle it. Well, I was practically cursing the whole time to myself, thinking how can this be, bla bla bla. Well, I walked 2 miles exactly in 30 min. Does that mean that in real life there is no way I will ever walk them that fast? I don't think I can walk that fast unless I was insane. It is tooo fast... I almost wanted to run... and the thought of running made me realize I could walk it.
I was excited to relax in the steam, since I had not been there at all, all week...and it was broken! How can that be. They said it broke because people pour water in the motor...well, if they kept it up really really hot there wouldn't be a necessity to do so. So I had to settle with the sauna it was good, but it was filled with men, I don't really mind it, except that I couldn't lay down like I usually do in the steam. Good heavens.

Ms. DORIS

I love this instructor too. She is my age, and sooooo athletic. I want to be like her, but I am not willing to eat like her. This is the main problem...I am not scared to commit my time and energy to exercise, but I am finding it extremely difficult to get disciplined in my eating. I realize it is not that hard, but I am finding out ways to sabotage myself more than ever before. Why is it, that this is happening, it is not even as if I am giving up caviar and champagne...or is it? I got late to LIFT and that makes me tremendously upset and the class was overflowing today! why? There were no heavy weights or hand held weights...and ended up getting the big ones you add to your bar weights...so it was kind of cumbersome. I should take mine in case....Well this was the first time there were ANY at all...I was bummed because today Alexei gets out early so no time for SAUNA OR STEAM! The cherry on top for me!

Pilate's was extremely good and difficult today, we have been making some maneuvers that entail lifting your TAIL! Well, is where you lay down and then lift your but and the lift a foot and leg up and then the other leg...it is extremely difficult with all this extra weight I am carrying around, specially in that area...so I get discouraged easily and find myself trying to find pity with myself, and i can see this cycle coming throughout my life...so instead of not even trying I am trying even if it is for microseconds. I keep thinking about the biggest looser, which I missed this week, but these trainers kick their butt and I have to get bitchy like that with myself. So I will not give up easily and I will try to do it, even if for brief moments.

Wednesday is going to be 4 again!

I want to get back to the track on Wednesday, but it has been soo cold and rainy that I haven't gone back. Jorvik has been sick and not quite well yet. I think I get more upset by not walking and doing, than by feeling sorry for myself. All in all, I did not move and that makes me moody!

Tuesday is always fun

I love Tuesday's Pilate's and Weights. I was committed to going but I was distracted with the inauguration. I wanted to tape it and then savor it later, but then I did not leave. I decided to go when it was too late and not worth going to class just to warm down. So I decided to call Davey since he works close by to see if he wanted to have some late BRUNCH. We met a Costco and it was a really nice visit. I was bummed I did not do any physical exercise, but I had enough mental that day.

I find myself feeling upset when I don't do my routine, however I do welcome the change of having a lax time...but I guess I am just excited to be excited about moving my body all ways.

Monday again?

Wow...Today I had high hopes to go to Yoga at 8 am...but being a holiday and stuff...I ended up wanting to leave and nothing. I decided to go walking and only did 30 min. I will be excited to do yoga on Mondays. I want to be steady so I can incorporate Yoga every week. It has been a tremendous thing, trying to do poses and figure out how to be okay with being uncomfortable. For sure a learning experience.

I did not do anything on the weekend. Well we walked a lot but in a casual setting. I haven't been keeping up with the 35 min every single day. Need to recommit to it, having been doing 3 days maybe.

Friday. YOGA? Yes!

Today I found out that Judy was not going to be teaching so ZUMBA is not a go! So I was looking into what other class I could do. I found out that Doris teaches Yoga and Pilate's today again. Well, I seriously consider going to Yoga, I do not love it while I am doing it, I find it extremely difficult but I find that it is the best best best thing I can do for myself and still regret and miss all the years I could have done it. I was totally excited to do it with Doris. She always has a more athletic take on it, as she says it. So she had told me come early, because it gets full. OH MY GOSH, I came late on purpose, because I did not want to take any one's spot of a "regular." This is how twisted my brain is. Seriously. So I went early to walk on the treadmill which I PUSHED MYSELF for one of the firsts times. I usually do a 3.5 on the velocity, well ended up doing a 4.1 unheard of in me for a long long time. I think I even walked 2 miles in 25 minutes. Wow. That is a good thing. So I was all sweaty to go downstairs to a full class, any how, I was right next to the door in one of the ugliest, filthiest mats I have ever seen. I felt like the Matt too..I had not shaved in weeks, and probably my pits where not ready for a tank top debut here any how...but I had been soo sweaty from walking that I ended up taking it off. I was sooooo SELF AND BODY CONSCIOUS, I usually don't get this way. I usually let it slide and go about my business, but being in such proximity of GLORIOUS CALIFORNIANS, whether they are or are adopted, everyone in there looked soo buffed and fit. Gosh, I am scarily so looking like the biggest looser contestant. Any how, I got siked and when about it. I try to do the poses to the best of my abilities. Always doing a little bit more than I could, or at least trying it. Doris was sooo pleased when she saw me there, and was encouraging to me. I felt compassion from her and wanted to try harder. Compassion in a good way. So at the end of the class I was excited to be over with, but at the same time, really excited to have gone to her class. The other Yoga teacher is really good to, but I find her more energizing more simple cut. I don't know I guess it is different in a good way. The good news is that she teaches this Yoga class on Monday's and I don't have a schedule Monday class per say--other than that other yoga class, but this would work out better, because she teaches Monday at 8 AM. So I could take Alexei to School and then swing to the other gym that is by the beach and just go to the beach with Jorvik for a couple of hours just him and me. That would be wonderful for him...Since he loves the beach as much as I do. So at least for now, that is the plan. I loved the idea of relaxing in the steam again. Too bad I only have a window of 10 minutes today...and usually I only have 20 min. I wish I could stay longer between the jacuzzi, Steam and Sauna at least a 45 min ordeal would be just icing on the cake after two hours of exercise...Too bad it is not possible. Then it would seem like I was really having the life, so here I only get a little taste of the LIFE (meaning a mindless trip to the spa...per say). So 15-20 min will have to do. You see, I am doing it again, focusing on the thing I don't have and not enjoying what I did have. But when Alf comes and says, after working out 1 1/2, I was in the steam for 45 min and did not want to get out...Then those feelings surge up....

PS...Doris, did remark on how good I did my poses, and that she was seriously impressed by my efforts and results. Now, that is a good compliment to carry me for the next week. She was leaving to a weekend at the spa in the dessert with her girlfriends...NICE, and started class saying she had been playing GOLF in Pebble Beach....NICE! Nice, that is really nice--wished I was one of her girlfriends too!

Thursday my favorite day

I just love this day. I was ready to go and do weights. I think I love the instructor too. She is petite and soo in shape and has muscles like I wish I did. She is fantastic and I love her style. So I weighed and then relaxed kind of doing Pilate's ala Doris, that is her name, she is my age, and sadly I don't have anything to show for it--physically speaking. Except a posture that I have developed over the last 3 months, and kind of like strings holding my head back, my shoulders, and my back. It is wonderful she plays music to her class and gives options as what to do if the exercise is too hard. Then the coveted time at the steam. Sooo relaxing. I think though, that time is coming where I have not overlapped the eating part with the exercise part and this is when I start thinking of all the reasons why I am not making any progress and starting to feel sorry for myself. I am smart enough now to see and recognize the cycle. I am not going to get pushed into feeling my worth by how I look. True, seriously, there are very few fat girls in the gym. I can probably count them with my fingers and toes. Nevertheless, I won't see any results if I DO NOT EAT RIGHT. PERIOD. I must come to terms with this, because this is what is causing all the problems. Or the problem. Not ready to talk about this, but the fact of the matter is that the more I am trying to commit to this, the more resistance I am finding from no other than my BRAIN helped and in cahoots with my mouth. So there. Thursday was glorious in that I am liking the exercise part and I am not doing it begrudging so...

Wednesday no go

Sniff sniff sniff.....Today I was to walk 4 miles, but unfortunately Jorvik still has congested chest and cough....It was too cold in the morning to go out, then in the afternoon it was WAY TO HOT for the track///no shade...And in the afternoon the winds picked up and it was chili for him to go out...Excuses well yes, but this time, I was upset I could not go. Really and truthfully.

Tuesday 13

This is my most favorite day. I love love love the Pilate's class and enjoy it thoroughly. I love love the instructor and it is just marvelous what good it feels to have a hard core....not that I have it, and good posture, I am working hard for it! So afterwards it was weights with aerobic exercise...it was good, I decided to not just go through the motions but actually push myself to try and do everything exactly as instructed. It is hard, I just want killer arms, and abs, and buts and everything. Go figure this is not going to happen, when after wards I go and get a meximelt at taco bell... not all the time, but it does happen when I don't have breakfast...a big NONONONONONONO in my book. I love love breakfast so I will carry some almonds and an apple to eat right after class...the instructor told us is the best time to eat, because your body is depleted of carbs, and it needs fuel...so I even figure, YEAH this is the right time to eat a whopper! Because it will burn it immediately....you see this is why I am not pencil thin. So I will pack this things to eat while I drive home to pick up Alexei, because this is when it is easy to pick something up for me and then go and feed them at home...Why it is that I don't want to be fed at home, I think this is where my KEY to my body Figure figures...enough for now, later some more thoughts. I love love love the steam. Can't get enough and the best part is getting all the way laying down to the wall and lifting my legs up for 15 min. The best circulation exercise for varicose veins, and all good things for your body and legs, which TRULY needs it. I love this part of the work out it makes me feel like I did good.

I HAVEN'T WALKED TODAY! i NEED TO DO THE 35 MIN. when? shOULD HAVE GONE THIS MORNING.! yOU SEE don't leave for later what you can do NOW!

Monday 12

Today I was going to go to the track and walk my four miles, but sadly Jorvik is not feeling good to be outdoors yet, since it is still quite chili...So I MISSED MY WALK! This was a horrible thing. I do not like it one bit. Feel like I cannot possible miss on the week at least.
Ended up not being a lot of cardio, but I went to YOGA. I think this is the best class I can do for my life. I wished I started it 10, 20 years ago. As much as my mum talked about it and its benefits, I feel ashamed,bad, and just mad that I missed this. Kind of the same feeling I had when I did not start my 401K by 20 years, instead of late 20ties. The same feeling of kind of regret. The good thing, is that it is never too late to start and the teacher is just superb. She has this amazing voice and very wise. Telling you, you will pay sooner or later, but you will pay, so it is better to go through the uncomfort of sustaining positions that allow your body to become strong than to eventually have aches and pains...later in life. AMAZING AMAZING AMAZING. I am becoming more flexible...unbelievable....since I still have a huge bulge in the vientre, the but and the boobs...how is that....How can it not be. So this was glorious. killer, but glorious.

Now there is a pose that i just could not do...I think I was afraid of my knees or I was just afraid of not being able...I don't know but you are supposed to sit on your buttocks while your legs are back like a frog and then you actually lay back or even lay back all the way on your back............SERIOUSLY i DO have a cushy but that did not allow for this...this is times when I do feel like the marshmallow from ghost busters.......arhhhhhh I will do this, even if it takes me all YEAR!

Saturday/Sunday 10/11

NO WALK! Shame on me, the only one I did was the red carpet for the Golden Globes, having some cheetos for a snack...What a combo!

Zumba, my favorite part of the week

I love love love love love this. I wished I had a zumba class every day of the week, the work out is unbelievable and I sweat soo much and drink water constantly...besides the fact that I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT. Who said Asian women, had no rythm....I mean, this petit, slim girls have a movement going there, I mean, I am latin and have supposedly some and dancing to salsa, merengue, cumbia, zamba, etc., I would think! I love belly dancing too, we did some and i guess THE sad part is that I actually have a belly and it moves like a belly...OH DEAR! Where is I dream of Jennie....So Zumba yes indeed.

Oh and yes, I did have my 35 minutes of a brisk walk.

Thursday 8th

Today most of the day started with the wrong foot, well actually I did get in my 35 min walk. A must for this year. Daily I hope. Well, I was late for my lift class, which made me sniff....But Alf encouraged me to go to Pilate's even though I did not get my double dose--in a sense...I did venture out to the machines by myself. Thanks to Alf in some guidance he gave me on day I did end up doing like 10 machines with 10 repetitions three times....Exhausting, I did enjoy the steam room afterwards. Glorious.

Did get my 35 min walk too! This is a good thing.

Wed Walk

Walk was a brief walk but 2 miles are 2 miles. Intended to go to the track, but little guy still has fever and it is very cold....so well, tomorrow it will be good.

Happy Kings Day...Dia de Reyes! oh and the CARROT is back

Well, I started my year today, after a fail attempt yesterday to go to the gym at rush hour. I thought driving down there, what am I doing? First it is 5:15pm...and it is the new year, the gym is going to be pack, specially if all I wanted to do was walk or do stairmaster....crazy. I was missing my phone in a bag of messes, so ended up cleaning the car in front of taco bell...the lighting is fabulous...is next to loewes, so it took me a good hour and then I stop by to get a taco...perfect combo for the supposed work out I was to do. It has been to cold to go to the track with Jorvik...he has been under the weather for a couple of weeks. Took him to the Doctor's today and apparently he is getting through it.
So today I got back on track with Pilates, what in heaven's happend. I really noticed what I did over the holidays, for sure, I got a bulge next to my upper thigh, because this time when we were supposed to stack up our thighs in a linear manner....well, let me just tell you, I was rolling forward and backwards, forget trying to put your leg frontward for two counts and backward for two counts....gees.........yes, Well, now at least I am not in denial. I know what I must do to do this exercise without any wobbling.
STEP was good, although all those launches, I must start looking at them with love, because if they are sooo good for your body, then I will embrace them, instead of getting soo pissy every time we have to do them, 2/3 of the class. The steam was extremely nice after such a long brake. Thank goodness this is my cherry on top of all the suffering.
ps...I saw the biggest looser for the first time, and I was IN SHOCK! Seriously...where in the world am I hiding 90 lbs.....since I see myself and don't see big huge bulges, maybe this is a wake up call....loving those launches, and those carrot exercises....and many more good things...

Oh one of my goals is to walk 35 min, regarless of gym work out....or track walking....did them yesterday, today so so far soo good.