Saturday????

Yeah, I remember, last Saturday I wanted to add another zumba class to the week, but Alf left to exercise and I couldn't go. So this day, I woke up at 9! Well actually got up...I have been up since 7ish...but realized I wanted to be in class. So I went to the gym that is right by my house...I do not like it one bit. The exercise classroom is sooo ugly and the ceiling is soo low. Any how, the class was packed and I loved that I sweat ed like a pig, probably because it was sooo packed and ventilation were not good, but the teacher is not even close to Judy and her music...OH MAN! I am sooo lucky to have a fantastic Zumba class, so this is the second one so it will be good, but wish I could do zumba with Judy every day! That would be awesome.

Afterwards, I called Alf to see if he wanted to go to Yoga and we would switch the kids, but he had just had breakfast, so I stayed. I have done Yoga with Gerri all the times I have gone, except for one that I did with Doris, and it was soo fantastic to be with Gerri again. I think I like her, because she is good and pushes you to do soo much than you can possible think. She always remarks that it is better to try and do the pose and even if it is uncomfortable but OHHHH SOOO GOOD for your body. She is so knowledgeable about it, and I was trying hard. I caught myself many times today, thinking OHHH THERE IS NO WAY I CAN DO THAT! And I would not try. I stoped myself and even she would say don't just go through the motions, engage and do. So I was trying to do even if it was for brief moments. It came to my mind all the gymnastics I did for years and years, and how I have all the knowledge to do the back flips, the cartwheels without hands, I know I can do it, but fear, because of all the weight I have; and good thing is to fear, because it is real. So when she said we are going to do a head stand....I thought, OHHHH My, I have done those all my life, and handstands too! I lived in my handstands all the time, probably since i turned 7 until the age of 17! I was on my head or my hands....but OHHHHHH NO! Your wit tells you, oHHHH NO! you CAN'T AND YOU SHANT! So I prepared...and got probably to steps 3 out of 7 but could not do it, or I feared to try. The good thing is that we were supposed to only try heading up towards that... I realized I was incompetent, but not for long, until i DECIDED to TRY and try and try until I can achieve. So this is a goal of mine, I am giving me a YEAR to try and do this that seems so natural in my other life. Yoga was very good. Very mind engaging, very much so. I want to be in charge of my body and I want to communicate with it and be in zinc. I find myself becoming more flexible and even think my little large tummy is giving a bit away! Could it be? It really can. Faith. That is what I need.