Ms. DORIS

I love this instructor too. She is my age, and sooooo athletic. I want to be like her, but I am not willing to eat like her. This is the main problem...I am not scared to commit my time and energy to exercise, but I am finding it extremely difficult to get disciplined in my eating. I realize it is not that hard, but I am finding out ways to sabotage myself more than ever before. Why is it, that this is happening, it is not even as if I am giving up caviar and champagne...or is it? I got late to LIFT and that makes me tremendously upset and the class was overflowing today! why? There were no heavy weights or hand held weights...and ended up getting the big ones you add to your bar weights...so it was kind of cumbersome. I should take mine in case....Well this was the first time there were ANY at all...I was bummed because today Alexei gets out early so no time for SAUNA OR STEAM! The cherry on top for me!

Pilate's was extremely good and difficult today, we have been making some maneuvers that entail lifting your TAIL! Well, is where you lay down and then lift your but and the lift a foot and leg up and then the other leg...it is extremely difficult with all this extra weight I am carrying around, specially in that area...so I get discouraged easily and find myself trying to find pity with myself, and i can see this cycle coming throughout my life...so instead of not even trying I am trying even if it is for microseconds. I keep thinking about the biggest looser, which I missed this week, but these trainers kick their butt and I have to get bitchy like that with myself. So I will not give up easily and I will try to do it, even if for brief moments.