Today I found out that Judy was not going to be teaching so ZUMBA is not a go! So I was looking into what other class I could do. I found out that Doris teaches Yoga and Pilate's today again. Well, I seriously consider going to Yoga, I do not love it while I am doing it, I find it extremely difficult but I find that it is the best best best thing I can do for myself and still regret and miss all the years I could have done it. I was totally excited to do it with Doris. She always has a more athletic take on it, as she says it. So she had told me come early, because it gets full. OH MY GOSH, I came late on purpose, because I did not want to take any one's spot of a "regular." This is how twisted my brain is. Seriously. So I went early to walk on the treadmill which I PUSHED MYSELF for one of the firsts times. I usually do a 3.5 on the velocity, well ended up doing a 4.1 unheard of in me for a long long time. I think I even walked 2 miles in 25 minutes. Wow. That is a good thing. So I was all sweaty to go downstairs to a full class, any how, I was right next to the door in one of the ugliest, filthiest mats I have ever seen. I felt like the Matt too..I had not shaved in weeks, and probably my pits where not ready for a tank top debut here any how...but I had been soo sweaty from walking that I ended up taking it off. I was sooooo SELF AND BODY CONSCIOUS, I usually don't get this way. I usually let it slide and go about my business, but being in such proximity of GLORIOUS CALIFORNIANS, whether they are or are adopted, everyone in there looked soo buffed and fit. Gosh, I am scarily so looking like the biggest looser contestant. Any how, I got siked and when about it. I try to do the poses to the best of my abilities. Always doing a little bit more than I could, or at least trying it. Doris was sooo pleased when she saw me there, and was encouraging to me. I felt compassion from her and wanted to try harder. Compassion in a good way. So at the end of the class I was excited to be over with, but at the same time, really excited to have gone to her class. The other Yoga teacher is really good to, but I find her more energizing more simple cut. I don't know I guess it is different in a good way. The good news is that she teaches this Yoga class on Monday's and I don't have a schedule Monday class per say--other than that other yoga class, but this would work out better, because she teaches Monday at 8 AM. So I could take Alexei to School and then swing to the other gym that is by the beach and just go to the beach with Jorvik for a couple of hours just him and me. That would be wonderful for him...Since he loves the beach as much as I do. So at least for now, that is the plan. I loved the idea of relaxing in the steam again. Too bad I only have a window of 10 minutes today...and usually I only have 20 min. I wish I could stay longer between the jacuzzi, Steam and Sauna at least a 45 min ordeal would be just icing on the cake after two hours of exercise...Too bad it is not possible. Then it would seem like I was really having the life, so here I only get a little taste of the LIFE (meaning a mindless trip to the spa...per say). So 15-20 min will have to do. You see, I am doing it again, focusing on the thing I don't have and not enjoying what I did have. But when Alf comes and says, after working out 1 1/2, I was in the steam for 45 min and did not want to get out...Then those feelings surge up....PS...Doris, did remark on how good I did my poses, and that she was seriously impressed by my efforts and results. Now, that is a good compliment to carry me for the next week. She was leaving to a weekend at the spa in the dessert with her girlfriends...NICE, and started class saying she had been playing GOLF in Pebble Beach....NICE! Nice, that is really nice--wished I was one of her girlfriends too!
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