Thursday Night

YES! My first Yoga class at night. It was amazing and good. We got a sub today and he was different but good, when I get to see other yoga instructors, is when I really appreciate and feel grateful for Geri's gift. Afterwards, I ended up in the sauna for 20 min. It was glorious. I could have finished with a walk home. oh well.

Wed Yoga

Wednesday was superb. I fixed my problem with Wednesday. Now I will be going to YOGA at 8:30 am! It worked out really good. It is a new gym. THE NICEST ONE AROUND! I wished Alf could go to it; but it is only 3 dollars more for me per month, and he would have to pay like 20 more! Isn't that unfair? (since I am an add on). So I am happy because I can do YOGA with Master Geri 3 more times per week. That in itself is a HUGE HUGE HUGE GIFT! Now I need to attack my anxiety, I've been eating a lot more lately. Things are very stressful. I need to discipline myself and actually help ME, I am working against me. WHAT IS NEW?
Yoga was very very good.

OUCH YOGA

(Photo w/permission hopefully from Master Geri) Monday February 8th..
Yoga--We have been practicing a new asana...Picasana? I am not sure it is where you get down on your CUNCLILLAS...how do you say that in English. SQUAT! There you go. You must must must have both heels on the ground. NOW this is a very hard thing for me to accomplish. I can't do it, leave it to Geri to tell us not to be embarrassed but to use some props to help out. Rolling the back part of your Matt enough so that it could be used as a support to your heels in order to feel that you are flat on the floor. So I have been practicing this probably a couple of weeks. It is very hard to do and I have to actually breath my way down to it. I have been noticing a big problem lately, that will probably fix MY WEIGHT PROBLEM. My yoga has been compromised in that I cannot continue to improve myself and get deeper in the asanas, because of my FAT tissue. It is getting in the way. It is very very annoying, especially the one around the belly. It has gone drastically down, but still have enough to not let me turn and become more flexible on my side ribs. Also, going back to the asana, you have to get in a squat, then slowly you need to put your knees on your armpits. Then slowly lean forward enough to lift your legs up! Well lift up your lower extremities off the floor...Not a whole lot, but enough to have control of your whole body on your ANTEBRAZO...I think this might be the upper part of your arms. THIS HAS BEEN AND HAS BECOME A CHALLENGE. Although I am not 90lbs over weight, I am probably a good 70! for the J LO body I am looking for. I have done proper advancement in this area, but merely not enough as I should. I am (on the side) battling another issue--why I am not willing to eat more healthy or less quantity. So it is very hard to put all YOUR WEIGHT on your arms, and realize that it will be impossible to do, unless I start shedding the pounds. This has been a great motivator, since in the last year 3 months of doing YOGA I just want to become better at it. So needless to say, I lifted up my body a couple of times, my feet did not touch the ground which was exhilarating; but did go forward a bit more and landed on my nose! IT really hurt ed, and left with a red dot, super super tiny, well it is a big mark and badge now. Hysterics have set in...need to put the kids to bed.
ciao

February

February new month It all started great with
Monday 1st--YOGA it is always refreshing to start a week streching, bending, getting in uncomfortable positions and increasing your practice to achieve more results--endless really.
Wednesday 3rd--YOGA although short it was a good practice
Thursday 4th--GOT SWAYED to go to Breakfast instead of the GYM
Friday 5th--YOGA! Excellent, excellent, I can't believe i did not discovered this in my 20ees! It would have been formidable.
Saturday 6th--YOGA! Super super super super excellent. This month, Geri has been getting us to do two poses that I have been familiar with. It was good. A very very good practice.

YOGA

Tuesday 26--Since we don't have any money for kids' club, I have exchanged this exercise day with my new job. Spa Cleaner and Gardener to my parents estate! It is good excercise and it is nice to be in nature. I always love the outdoors.
Wed 27th-- I get only half of YOGA Class on Wed, because I have to drop Jorvik at school, it is a good half hour but feel cheated.
Thursday 28th--All I got today was a very upset mind, body, spirit and everything else that can get upset. For car issues, down to only one car now....I did not go. Prideful, maybe since Alf did not use the car either! Missed out on PILATES and LIFT--Although, did not have the 3 dollars for Kids' Club...
Friday 29th--Glorious Yoga! I love Geri it was an excellent work out. I am still thinking I should go back to the 2 hour work out. Too bad we just don't have the funds for kids' care.! RIDICULOUS really.
Saturday 30th--Sweaty YOGA more than 100 people. It turned out quite like a steam room at the end. It has been all good.

Need to get back to the journaling part of my exercise. There are soo many feelings and emotions I am fighting lately that it is very hard to let it go. I feel as if I was a safety box and was locking everything in it. NOT A GOOD THING.

YOGA YOGA YOGA

I am finding it difficult to document my progress, since I have soo many things in my mind. There is not a respite in my day and there are soo many things unsettling at the moment. I guess this is what life is, an unsetting experiment. However it is hard to focus and see what it is. There is anxiety, unsettling, worry, some what of despair, and this has been reduced dramatically since last November--because of prayer. However, with these worries, there is financial strain and with this, less visits to the gym certainly with the kids (3.00 per child) each time. So all in all it is not a good combination. There are changes that will take place, on my end or on Alf's, work for me, possibly during the day...meaning all my yoga/weights/pilates is out the window. Need to get the courage to keep going no matter what the scenary is. Just hop on the train of life/exercise and be what it may be.

Saturday 16 NO YOGA sick
Monday 18--NO YOGA sick
Wed 20--no YOGA sick
Thursday 21--sick no Pilates
Friday 22--Yoga yeah
Saturday 23--YOGA yeah!
Monday 25! YOGA and it was a great work out...then walked home 1/2 hour, what I did not plan on--very cold and I did not bring a sweater.

Yogi

Yes this is how I want to look at the end of the year. I totally think it is doable and I am ready to go. I have become more flexible and stronger than ever before, and I say that with a grin on my face. Yoga has been one of the most difficult if not the most difficult endeavor I have ever done. I believe doing YOGA in an overweight body has been a very very hard and demanding task, oftentimes very difficult and full of doubts. One thing I know for sure is that in this last year of at least practicing twice per week, it has brought a new form of discipline. I think one that demands something from your soul, being, body that asks you to continue to be patient. I wish there was something that could commit you to Yoga no matter what, and that you would interfere with Life and not Life with Yoga. I have tried over the past year several instructors, but the one I have learned to love is my dear Teacher Master Geri, as my little one named her. I absolutely love her ways and the manner in which she conducts her practices. I believe since the very first class, which was with her, I was blessed and continue to do so. There is something about her that wants me to put my 200 percent in. Yoga has been somewhat of abstract and very demanding; so much so, that sometimes I want to give it a 100 percent effort even more, but fall short to my whimpy annoyances. So here for another fabulous, heart-wrenching, fulfilling year.