Walked and Run

Today I did it again. I couldn't go to Pilate's as usual or SET, because we had Alexei's Dentist appointment at 9 am. I don't know what I was thinking when I set it up...School day? But I guess since it was a new Dentist and they were allowing us to be part of his dentist family...I would have done anything. It was a real surprise to see he was a good Dentist, not very young and very thorough...It seems. So I ended up going to the gym late afternoon. Alf was home doing homework, so I took the opportunity to go and listen to the radio and finally eat my hamburger, or then I thought go to the gym. So I ended up walking 4.2 miles. This time I sped up the velocity for running. I ran 5 times for 2 minutes. This time I ran at 5.5 which was a big stretch from 4.5. It was tiring. I can do pretty good 1.2 minutes, but barely finish the 2.0 minutes without wanting to quit right away. I started thinking why I am sooo bothered with the uncomfortable feeling. I should see the biggest looser each week, and be inspired to see HOW they press them and want them to go beyond what they would do on their own. I want to try that. I want to be pushed beyond my comfort zone. So this was good. I was surprised, I wanted to try it. I was pleased with the discomfort that I felt, and by the way burned 400 calories. This calorie business doesn't really interest me. If I work hard, I probably don't think twice in going to in and out for a burger right after the work out. I need to change this...This is why I am heavy. I don't see a consequence in in taking all those calories that supposedly are soo bad for you. I am tired. I want to lose all this weight and I know how to do it, but surprisingly I am FIGHTING IT ALL THE WAY. I think if I had already lost all the weight I could be really good in maintaining the weight with all the workouts I do. But I need to realize that either I push HARDER or start eating a lot less...because this is going to be the status quo for ever. Things won't change they will only remain. The thought of having fat go to my organs is not a fun one. Maybe I should think of this, I don't know if I am at that point, but if it is happening to the people in the biggest loser, it could happen to me. This should make me want to do something more aggressively. So, so far the only aggressive step I am doing is actually avoiding burgers and started running. Not bad. For some kind of epiphany.

The STEAM ROOM was glorious! OHHHH SO GLORIOUS! Good thing, I had my bottle, because as soon as I got in there, I started it. It was soooo foggy...that when the 4 guys came in, I did not even noticed them from all the FOGGY STEAM AROUND. Yes, this is how steam rooms should be. I was happy as happy can be. So happy I had to exit a couple of times to get some COLD water going. This is what a good work out should be? I am thinking I need to be getting alot more tired at work outs to make me feel happy and to know that I am pushing hard enough.